resolutions!

 I am very wishy-washy when it comes to resolutions; I don't keep track of them very well, and get overwhelmed by the possibility of 'failing' at them. 

Last year, my main resolution was to read more books - which I did! I started keeping a notebook to list each book I read, and what I liked about it. This was really validating, and I read around three times as many books as the year before! This has also been helped by my partner being a librarian, and my weakness for buying new books.

I think one of the things that helped me achieve this was how vague a goal it was - I didn't have to read a specific amount of things, or hit a particular target, I just had to read more. So along that theme, I've come up with four resolutions for this year!

1. Dedicate more time to making art
2. Write more letters
3. Get back into counselling/therapy
4. Get more tattoos

These are all things that help me heal and be happy; things I don't currently spend enough time doing. I'm always working at trying to find balance in my life, and I want to make sure that doing things I enjoy is a priority this year!

I also made a few other, more general goals. I'm wary of making them Official Resolutions because I don't want to fixate on them or become anxious about achieving them. But I'm keeping them in mind, and will be happy if I make even a little progress with them.

• Get fitter / lose weight
• See family more regularly
• Learn more about LGBT history

This is the first year that I feel a little optimism about what's coming up. In the grand scheme of things, life is very scary and overwhelming. But on a small, personal level, I feel grounded and able to face the year ahead.